Mood & thoughts

Hey Hey!

OK so its been a while since I've in any way updated this thing...oh well!

Just wanna write about my current mood and thoughts.

My mood is a mix bag of tricks. I'm really happy at the moment that I'm mad busy with either work or racing. I'm actually finished my racing season now but the preparation starts for next year. I am redoing the website for one thing, along with so many other things to sort out. But I'm happy to be busy and things will hopefully move forward as expected...

But then on the other hand I kind of feel burned out and a bit bleh ya know! OK so its like quarter past 12 in the morning as I write this, so its not helping my mood or thoughts.

The main reason I feel burned out is because I have the most amazing girlfriend in the world that is studying in Budapest...and in the past 3 weeks I feel I haven't been able to find 5mins to talk to her fully, never mind not being able to see her in person. It kills me at the best of times.

Maybe I'm not trying enough, I'm thinking that at the moment!!! But i would do anything to hold her hand, kiss her, hold her, cuddle with her.

Even as I'm writing this I'm thinking "Cormac don't be feeling so fucking sorry for yourself"...and I'm trying not to. I just feel out of touch with the girl I would do ANYTHING for!

And i try to text her telling her I lover her, to try to remind her I'm thinking of her. But i dunno whether its becoming tedious or whether she thinks its not good enough.

I know it makes all the agony and shitiness (oh yeah made up word lol) worth while when I do get to see her cause its the happiest time in the world for me and thinking about it is like a pain killer...

One thing that is also helping is the amazing (yet kind of late hehe) birthday present she gave me. Its just this amazing little book of our history and that she loves me and that reminds me that she is thinking of me =] Hell I have it beside me at the moment and will give it a good read through when I am finished.

I didn't think this would drift so much onto a positive (I guess that's what talking about my girlfriends does to me =])

To end on a high and positive...

I'm really happy to be busy at the moment with work and other little projects.
I miss my amazing, pretty, beautiful girlfriend more than anything in the world!
But I cant wait to see her soon and look forward to spending at least 5mins together with her (and another hour for other 'activities' with her =p)

Love you Pit Bitch <3

Peace Out Peeps (ahahaha)

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